Yesterday I was thinking a lot about what comes next after South Korea. I've always had half a mind to accomplish more and then I got to thinking about what more can I accomplish? I'm a marginally successful writer, which is good enough. I mean, making my living from writing would be ....great? I'd get to write all day, yeah! I'd have to write all day, hmmm. It's kind of like the time I decided to go back to collage and major in art. I took art classes for three days and realized that drawing that much gave me a headache.
Anyway, my point is, I was thinking I need to be more successful, but my life here in Korea is strange but awesome. I'm a teacher by day, a writer/publisher by night, a baker/ candy maker when the mood strikes and on Sundays I fell into volunteering at the riding stables in Sangju as a horse trainer which has meant simplifying the encyclopedia of horses in my brain ESL essential elements-- simplifying is good.
The work I do isn't exactly prestigious but not long after I got the feeling that I need to do more, I realized that's a wrong way of thinking. Going back to the States and settling, would actually be a simplification. The question is, what do I really want. I'm thirty-five and I still don't know. It feels like I should and yet...